Rusty

I left couples therapy. Here’s why.

Wolf and I have been in couples therapy for a couple of years now. He wanted us to go to help us, primarily and specifically, to improve our communication skills. I finally agreed and we set it up. The therapist assigned to us is phenomenal. I assure you my decision is NO reflection upon her,Continue reading “I left couples therapy. Here’s why.”

Truly, I just want to write

Letters advocating for person’s White papers For CPTSD Foundation as it provides a specific foci – healing from trauma Ghost writer to tell the stories of those who cannot pen it themselves, for any of one litany of reasons. (My preferred style is we talk, I write in your voice, we edit, we post/publish. Further,Continue reading “Truly, I just want to write”

ADD, Nature and Nurture, C-PTSD

ADHD is Wolf’s primary diagnosis. We are becoming better versed with this. He is well-versed in it. I am working on it. ‘Doesn’t it make sense that Rusty has ADD given the following: her father has not been formally diagnosed with ADHD. Yet he has the same classic symptoms I have, so it is logicalContinue reading “ADD, Nature and Nurture, C-PTSD”

Encounter with a fox

Clutter, Grieving and Memories

What do I keep? Why do I keep it? What is the purpose, want or need. Where is the future need for it? Really, do I need it? Or maybe, do I need it, still? Honestly, I also think of the quote I recently read, posted on … regarding clutter Reality is: I can takeContinue reading “Clutter, Grieving and Memories”

What makes me a great nanny is what opens me up, or makes me prone to, drawing mommy issues. However, I am thinking and beginning to believe, especially when it IS diagnose – by a licensed mental health professional – developmental trauma, is it A part of healing? Yesterday (Valentine’s Day 2022) A and EContinue reading

Let’s talk about

Mommy Issues Yeah, those! I endured both developmental and relational trauma from birth until I put physical space between us. (It snowballed downhill fast after I cut off contact with my biological parents.) So, yeah, I have parent issues. The more you learn, the more you will, hopefully, will understand. My second peer, whom IContinue reading “Let’s talk about”

Disconnected is Surviving, Sometimes.

*** Trigger Warning *** Mental health – symptoms and mechanisms – exist on a spectrum. This may seem strange. You may already know this. It is true! Symptoms can vary in intensity – mild to severe. When a symptom impairs a person’s ability to go about their regular activities (weekly or daily), this indicates aContinue reading “Disconnected is Surviving, Sometimes.”

How lonely living with CPTSD can be

Until about October or November 2021, I had not met anyone else diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, in person. There are groups and communities online where I found fellow survivors. Where they were in their journies varied differently. Heck, I have even heard from the naysayers and non-believers. They are wonderful. There areContinue reading “How lonely living with CPTSD can be”

It’s Christmas Eve, 2021. I’m Reflecting

Reflecting on what? I do not know. Exactly. Or, specifically. Nor do I even know what my intent is in reflecting, at this moment at least. The best I can feel is simply because I suspect Normalizing and Rescripting are prominent for me currently. How does it feel? Weird Uncomfortable Good(ish) Positive SCARY Beautiful HarrowingContinue reading “It’s Christmas Eve, 2021. I’m Reflecting”