Letters advocating for person’s White papers For CPTSD Foundation as it provides a specific foci – healing from trauma Ghost writer to tell the stories of those who cannot pen it themselves, for any of one litany of reasons. (My preferred style is we talk, I write in your voice, we edit, we post/publish. Further,Continue reading “Truly, I just want to write”
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Clutter, Grieving and Memories
What do I keep? Why do I keep it? What is the purpose, want or need. Where is the future need for it? Really, do I need it? Or maybe, do I need it, still? Honestly, I also think of the quote I recently read, posted on … regarding clutter Reality is: I can takeContinue reading “Clutter, Grieving and Memories”
Let’s talk about
Mommy Issues Yeah, those! I endured both developmental and relational trauma from birth until I put physical space between us. (It snowballed downhill fast after I cut off contact with my biological parents.) So, yeah, I have parent issues. The more you learn, the more you will, hopefully, will understand. My second peer, whom IContinue reading “Let’s talk about”
Writing is tough
As a person who loves words, ideas and writing, I seem to struggle greatly with ACTUALLY writing. I know I am not alone in this. How do I conquer this? Great question and one I do not yet have an answer for. I do have thoughts, excuses, reasons and, well, probably somewhere in all ofContinue reading “Writing is tough”
At Capacity and It is OK
January 24, 2021 Dear Diary, I must recap our last few sessions. Two are our couple sessions. Two are mine and one is Wolf’s. A total of five (5). Together, they are enlightening, informative and help build healthy boundaries, for me. See, I am at my capacity. The place where ‘Enough is Enough, something mustContinue reading “At Capacity and It is OK”
We struggle with … repetitiveness
Each for different reasons. Likely, no shock there. For Wolf, it is a trigger. How is it a trigger? It reminds Wolf of his father’s relentless questioning every time he left. For years. That relentlessness can wear on a person. It did upon Wolf. As for me, it became so repetitive for me to repeatContinue reading “We struggle with … repetitiveness”
Gratitude: Growth, Progress
Dear Diary, A blog I follow, The Write Nook, recently reminded me to write about gratitude. Yes, I have heard this before. Read it. Thought about it. Pondered it. Forgot about it. Lost touch with it. Wrote it in Daylio (app). Made lists of it. Bought books about it. (List books included). And more, probably.Continue reading “Gratitude: Growth, Progress”
How come I am on SSI
It is sure as heck is not because I enjoyed the process – which many consider traumatizing, rightfully, – of waiting over a year, constantly filling out paperwork, making phone calls, repeating the same information over and over to gain a label of “disabled”. I appreciate and respect a reasonable and healthy amount of paperwork,Continue reading “How come I am on SSI”
Bored. Now what?
Dear Diary, I am bored! For years, I struggled with anxiety and it resulted in so many problems. I fought to have the cognitive capabilities and inner strength to stop avoiding, summon up enough internal strength and courage to face the problems. (Read my posts about student loan debt for one prime example.)
“I can’t afford to dream right now.”
Those may have been the toughest words I have spoken in a while. How come? Because they flowed out of my mouth in conversation. They hurt to, both, hear and say. They did. How can one afford to dream when our home is a truck, our credit is poor, our shared trauma consumes me, andContinue reading ““I can’t afford to dream right now.””
Rusty & Wolf 2019 