Wolf and I have been in couples therapy for a couple of years now. He wanted us to go to help us, primarily and specifically, to improve our communication skills. I finally agreed and we set it up. The therapist assigned to us is phenomenal. I assure you my decision is NO reflection upon her,Continue reading “I left couples therapy. Here’s why.”
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Encounter with a fox
Disconnected is Surviving, Sometimes.
*** Trigger Warning *** Mental health – symptoms and mechanisms – exist on a spectrum. This may seem strange. You may already know this. It is true! Symptoms can vary in intensity – mild to severe. When a symptom impairs a person’s ability to go about their regular activities (weekly or daily), this indicates aContinue reading “Disconnected is Surviving, Sometimes.”
How lonely living with CPTSD can be
Until about October or November 2021, I had not met anyone else diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, in person. There are groups and communities online where I found fellow survivors. Where they were in their journies varied differently. Heck, I have even heard from the naysayers and non-believers. They are wonderful. There areContinue reading “How lonely living with CPTSD can be”
It’s Christmas Eve, 2021. I’m Reflecting
Reflecting on what? I do not know. Exactly. Or, specifically. Nor do I even know what my intent is in reflecting, at this moment at least. The best I can feel is simply because I suspect Normalizing and Rescripting are prominent for me currently. How does it feel? Weird Uncomfortable Good(ish) Positive SCARY Beautiful HarrowingContinue reading “It’s Christmas Eve, 2021. I’m Reflecting”
5 days into 2022
And it has been a whirlwind. An unexpected crisis this afternoon. An unexpected death of a dear friend of my boyfriend and I. For Wolf, he was a second father in some ways. COVID struck close to home. We are careful, always; we are more concerned and vigilant of distance. His parents believed it wasContinue reading “5 days into 2022”
My 30 Day Challenge, Day 3
“in addition to being a participate in our society the best ways I can.”
Who has the right? Or am I in the wrong!
Finally, I have stopped lying to myself, with the supportive challenge “it” assistance from my therapist. What lie is this one? The one where I believed my shame, humiliation, self-stigma, self-loathing and pain are the primary reason I struggle with talking to my aunt.
Disenfranchised
Today’s takeaway from psychotherapy. We covered skills and coping as well. Perhaps, when recognizing one’s own disenfranchisement, this is healthy, even normal. I suppose, Diary. I could be a disenchanted participant. What good what that really do? Truthfully, though, I am a little. Jaded as well. Welcome to a healthy amount of numbing oneself toContinue reading “Disenfranchised”
Some things do not change
Even during a national emergency, in a global pandemic and I, for one, find a funny comfort in that. Albeit, that funny comfort pertains to a demoralizing and frustratingly humiliating appointment, that is, simply, par for the course when applying for SSDI or SSI. Seeing a Social Security Administration doctor A little while ago, Wolf’sContinue reading “Some things do not change”
Rusty & Wolf 2019 