Wolf and I have been in couples therapy for a couple of years now. He wanted us to go to help us, primarily and specifically, to improve our communication skills. I finally agreed and we set it up. The therapist assigned to us is phenomenal. I assure you my decision is NO reflection upon her,Continue reading “I left couples therapy. Here’s why.”
Tag Archives: CPTSD
Truly, I just want to write
Letters advocating for person’s White papers For CPTSD Foundation as it provides a specific foci – healing from trauma Ghost writer to tell the stories of those who cannot pen it themselves, for any of one litany of reasons. (My preferred style is we talk, I write in your voice, we edit, we post/publish. Further,Continue reading “Truly, I just want to write”
What makes me a great nanny is what opens me up, or makes me prone to, drawing mommy issues. However, I am thinking and beginning to believe, especially when it IS diagnose – by a licensed mental health professional – developmental trauma, is it A part of healing? Yesterday (Valentine’s Day 2022) A and EContinue reading
Let’s talk about
Mommy Issues Yeah, those! I endured both developmental and relational trauma from birth until I put physical space between us. (It snowballed downhill fast after I cut off contact with my biological parents.) So, yeah, I have parent issues. The more you learn, the more you will, hopefully, will understand. My second peer, whom IContinue reading “Let’s talk about”
How lonely living with CPTSD can be
Until about October or November 2021, I had not met anyone else diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, in person. There are groups and communities online where I found fellow survivors. Where they were in their journies varied differently. Heck, I have even heard from the naysayers and non-believers. They are wonderful. There areContinue reading “How lonely living with CPTSD can be”
5 days into 2022
And it has been a whirlwind. An unexpected crisis this afternoon. An unexpected death of a dear friend of my boyfriend and I. For Wolf, he was a second father in some ways. COVID struck close to home. We are careful, always; we are more concerned and vigilant of distance. His parents believed it wasContinue reading “5 days into 2022”
Cabin Fever when one lacks housing
Does not look the same as when it is in a home. We live in his truck. It is a small space. The storms this month have often spread over 24 hours. As I write this, we are at the tail end of a storm which graced us for almost 48 hours. Again. Yet myContinue reading “Cabin Fever when one lacks housing”
At Capacity and It is OK
January 24, 2021 Dear Diary, I must recap our last few sessions. Two are our couple sessions. Two are mine and one is Wolf’s. A total of five (5). Together, they are enlightening, informative and help build healthy boundaries, for me. See, I am at my capacity. The place where ‘Enough is Enough, something mustContinue reading “At Capacity and It is OK”
December 16, 2020
I am IRATE!! Yes, that angry! Systems. A disconnected, antiquated and privileged inequality with absolutely no equitably to be found. Anywhere!!! I feel so frustrated. I need my own money, yet cannot get to it! This has to be called Fraudulent when any person considers what people who ACTUALLY need help and assistance need toContinue reading “December 16, 2020”
Flashbacks have returned
Specifically, my emotional, maybe, mental, flashbacks. I do not have visual flashbacks, to my knowledge, for the most part. Whether that is a blessing or a curse, I really do not know. In terms of treatment options, visual flashbacks have more options available. They are, in some ways, easier to reframe for meaning to beContinue reading “Flashbacks have returned”
Rusty & Wolf 2019 