Right now, Wolf is heading back to court for a second order of protection based on new information recently learned. That leaves me to be concerned for our mental and emotional wellbeing. The primary reason is we are both triggered and a number of unpleasant feelings arise for each of us, individually, and as aContinue reading “A Few Notes about this blog”
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Bored. Now what?
Dear Diary, I am bored! For years, I struggled with anxiety and it resulted in so many problems. I fought to have the cognitive capabilities and inner strength to stop avoiding, summon up enough internal strength and courage to face the problems. (Read my posts about student loan debt for one prime example.)
December 20, 2020
It is interesting to me how homelessness is similar to death. For those who are actively experiencing it, it is the core of their being while around them, the world goes on. Many years ago, I took a college course about Death, Dying and Grief from a multicultural perspective. United States culture minimizes death asContinue reading “December 20, 2020”
December 19, 2020
Dear Diary: You are finally able to admit to yourself, nights are the hardest parts. Specifically about 5:00 pm to 9:00 pm when we lay down and snuggle under our covers for bed. Bed doesn’t even mean sleep. First, by that time, it is cold. Of course, this winter has been rougher than last year.Continue reading “December 19, 2020”
December 6, 2020
Note: This post is out of order. I had hand written it originally. Dear Me, Recently, I have questioned how come I do not go to a shelter. Really questioned it. Any doubt I had was removed when two days ago my therapist noted, the past 3 to 4 sessions, I mentioned my decision notContinue reading “December 6, 2020”
Flashbacks have returned
Specifically, my emotional, maybe, mental, flashbacks. I do not have visual flashbacks, to my knowledge, for the most part. Whether that is a blessing or a curse, I really do not know. In terms of treatment options, visual flashbacks have more options available. They are, in some ways, easier to reframe for meaning to beContinue reading “Flashbacks have returned”
December 12, 2020
Simply checking in with myself. Randomly, of course! 🤗😳😁 Wolf and I were just talking about this year versus last year. The differences. For good and bad. This seems worthy of recall, so here it is. Dear Diary, Last year, Wolf was busier at this time. He had different focus. Still messing around with matters.Continue reading “December 12, 2020”
Student Loan Crisis and Me
How many of us have heard, know someone or, yourself, in Student Loan Debt? Even I am aware of this burden many of us face. Before COVID, there were multiple reasons. The economy for one. Perhaps two and three as well. Other reasons: values changing, expectations alter, we grow up and steadfast or we demandContinue reading “Student Loan Crisis and Me”
Feelings of …
Shame. Embarrassment. Humiliation. Yes, these ugly and uncomfortable emotions. I have twenty-five plus years living with these emotions or feelings. They suck! Truly, I mean that. I personally have lived with these feelings for decades. It is odd to be aware of them yet not Consumed by them. Where I have been consumed is inContinue reading “Feelings of …”
November 2020
The month was interesting, enlightening and, I daresay, informative. I could not have expected it. Our treatment team did. They pointed it out as one of our strengths. An odd one, if I may say. The first posts will briefly summarize the transformative season I, in particular, had, before this month. This information will helpContinue reading “November 2020”
Rusty & Wolf 2019 