Homeless – Rusty & Wolf 2019

On the road, wandering, again.

Who has the right? Or am I in the wrong!

Finally, I have stopped lying to myself, with the supportive challenge “it” assistance from my therapist. What lie is this one? The one where I believed my shame, humiliation, self-stigma, self-loathing and pain are the primary reason I struggle with talking to my aunt.

December 25, 2020

Dear Diary, It is Christmas Day. We are in the truck with nowhere to go. Same as most days. Our abusers are in their houses living well. They have no concerns. They were not the ones who left and they believe they have done no wrong. We cannot go to a shelter because of myContinue reading “December 25, 2020”

N.Y. isn’t a Housing First State. We know!

We are two of its victims. Yes, I wrote victims. Because we, as are the underrepresented numbers of others, are victims. We were before the global pandemic. We are during it. (Honestly, at this moment, I cannot see an end to the pandemic, never mind the homeless and homeseeking populations.) Add in those who areContinue reading “N.Y. isn’t a Housing First State. We know!”

December 16, 2020

I am IRATE!! Yes, that angry! Systems. A disconnected, antiquated and privileged inequality with absolutely no equitably to be found. Anywhere!!! I feel so frustrated. I need my own money, yet cannot get to it! This has to be called Fraudulent when any person considers what people who ACTUALLY need help and assistance need toContinue reading “December 16, 2020”

Flashbacks have returned

Specifically, my emotional, maybe, mental, flashbacks. I do not have visual flashbacks, to my knowledge, for the most part. Whether that is a blessing or a curse, I really do not know. In terms of treatment options, visual flashbacks have more options available. They are, in some ways, easier to reframe for meaning to beContinue reading “Flashbacks have returned”

December 12, 2020

Simply checking in with myself. Randomly, of course! 🤗😳😁 Wolf and I were just talking about this year versus last year. The differences. For good and bad. This seems worthy of recall, so here it is. Dear Diary, Last year, Wolf was busier at this time. He had different focus. Still messing around with matters.Continue reading “December 12, 2020”

Student Loan Crisis and Me

How many of us have heard, know someone or, yourself, in Student Loan Debt? Even I am aware of this burden many of us face. Before COVID, there were multiple reasons. The economy for one. Perhaps two and three as well. Other reasons: values changing, expectations alter, we grow up and steadfast or we demandContinue reading “Student Loan Crisis and Me”

Our introduction

Helping ourselves is nowhere near as easy it may seem to others. For a variety of reasons! Let me explain with what I have recently learned was, for myself, at least, the KEY component to being able to describe how I can NOW help myself better than I have in years. Cognitive functioning impairments andContinue reading “Our introduction”