Living Experience – Rusty & Wolf 2019

What makes me a great nanny is what opens me up, or makes me prone to, drawing mommy issues. However, I am thinking and beginning to believe, especially when it IS diagnose – by a licensed mental health professional – developmental trauma, is it A part of healing? Yesterday (Valentine’s Day 2022) A and EContinue reading

Disconnected is Surviving, Sometimes.

*** Trigger Warning *** Mental health – symptoms and mechanisms – exist on a spectrum. This may seem strange. You may already know this. It is true! Symptoms can vary in intensity – mild to severe. When a symptom impairs a person’s ability to go about their regular activities (weekly or daily), this indicates aContinue reading “Disconnected is Surviving, Sometimes.”

How lonely living with CPTSD can be

Until about October or November 2021, I had not met anyone else diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, in person. There are groups and communities online where I found fellow survivors. Where they were in their journies varied differently. Heck, I have even heard from the naysayers and non-believers. They are wonderful. There areContinue reading “How lonely living with CPTSD can be”

It’s Christmas Eve, 2021. I’m Reflecting

Reflecting on what? I do not know. Exactly. Or, specifically. Nor do I even know what my intent is in reflecting, at this moment at least. The best I can feel is simply because I suspect Normalizing and Rescripting are prominent for me currently. How does it feel? Weird Uncomfortable Good(ish) Positive SCARY Beautiful HarrowingContinue reading “It’s Christmas Eve, 2021. I’m Reflecting”

5 days into 2022

And it has been a whirlwind. An unexpected crisis this afternoon. An unexpected death of a dear friend of my boyfriend and I. For Wolf, he was a second father in some ways. COVID struck close to home. We are careful, always; we are more concerned and vigilant of distance. His parents believed it wasContinue reading “5 days into 2022”

My 30 Day Challenge, Day 3

“in addition to being a participate in our society the best ways I can.”