Dear Diary, It is Christmas Day. We are in the truck with nowhere to go. Same as most days. Our abusers are in their houses living well. They have no concerns. They were not the ones who left and they believe they have done no wrong. We cannot go to a shelter because of myContinue reading “December 25, 2020”
Tag Archives: Progress
A Few Notes about this blog
Right now, Wolf is heading back to court for a second order of protection based on new information recently learned. That leaves me to be concerned for our mental and emotional wellbeing. The primary reason is we are both triggered and a number of unpleasant feelings arise for each of us, individually, and as aContinue reading “A Few Notes about this blog”
Healthy was missing. I did not know.
How can I know, healthy is missing, when I was not taught healthy? As I write those words, I realize they are incorrect, partially. I have had healthy people in my life since birth. What I did not have was either enough of them or they did not have the knowledge to see what andContinue reading “Healthy was missing. I did not know.”
My Pyrotechnician Internship
First, a pyrotechnician is a person who is able to work with professional grade fireworks. Wolf has been one for over a decade. It is not a full-time job. It is a fun side gig! Over the years, I tried to go to shows and was not able to. (The reasons are beyond the scopeContinue reading “My Pyrotechnician Internship”
December 6, 2020
Note: This post is out of order. I had hand written it originally. Dear Me, Recently, I have questioned how come I do not go to a shelter. Really questioned it. Any doubt I had was removed when two days ago my therapist noted, the past 3 to 4 sessions, I mentioned my decision notContinue reading “December 6, 2020”
Someone is actively and consciously choosing to protect us
For the first time in three years, I feel believed by a person outside of my treatment team. That is amazing and validating. It may seem ridiculous to you. It used to me also. Yet it is real and for once, I see other people seeing and believing what even the courts and law continueContinue reading “Someone is actively and consciously choosing to protect us”
A Transforming Season
Please be mindful, this site comes with Trigger Warnings throughout it. July 2020 through November 2020 taught me more than I could have imagined. I saw and felt pain in multiple ways. Pain was unrealistic, unreasonable, unresolved, nonresponsive, denied, misplaced, lied about, ignored, explosive, solitary, isolating, confusing, humiliating and more. So many times, alcoholism wasContinue reading “A Transforming Season”
Rusty & Wolf 2019 