Dear Diary, Clearly today is not my best mood. The weather is amazingly beautiful today. (I admit, given the number of storms we have had recently, this does NOT take require a lot. Sunny and few, if any clouds. And in the 30s!!!!!) Yet, I cannot go out to enjoy it. We are stuck inContinue reading “Stagnation, Stagnant and Me”
Tag Archives: Repair
At Capacity and It is OK
January 24, 2021 Dear Diary, I must recap our last few sessions. Two are our couple sessions. Two are mine and one is Wolf’s. A total of five (5). Together, they are enlightening, informative and help build healthy boundaries, for me. See, I am at my capacity. The place where ‘Enough is Enough, something mustContinue reading “At Capacity and It is OK”
We struggle with … repetitiveness
Each for different reasons. Likely, no shock there. For Wolf, it is a trigger. How is it a trigger? It reminds Wolf of his father’s relentless questioning every time he left. For years. That relentlessness can wear on a person. It did upon Wolf. As for me, it became so repetitive for me to repeatContinue reading “We struggle with … repetitiveness”
Two Precipatiting Events
In the laundrymat and I have had enough of non-mask wearing people who have their mask under their chin instead of over their nose AND mouth! The variants had already been detected and spread, we are being forced to remain “truck camping” or “homeless” or “homeseeking” or “nomadic” or “off-grid” because people will NOT wearContinue reading “Two Precipatiting Events”
Gratitude: Growth, Progress
Dear Diary, A blog I follow, The Write Nook, recently reminded me to write about gratitude. Yes, I have heard this before. Read it. Thought about it. Pondered it. Forgot about it. Lost touch with it. Wrote it in Daylio (app). Made lists of it. Bought books about it. (List books included). And more, probably.Continue reading “Gratitude: Growth, Progress”
Behavioral Health Care Manager
Both Wolf and I work with a behavioral health manager, through a local chapter of a multi-faceted social service organization. We are grateful! We are a great fit and becoming a better team all of the time. Our manager works with us as a couple. Legally, because we are not married, this means we areContinue reading “Behavioral Health Care Manager”
A Life of Neglect, 3
December 20, 2020 I took notes of a conversation Wolf & I had. The notes prompted this post. Wolf’s life, was much like my brother’s, I believe. Full of neglect. Whereas, mine was full of overprotectiveness, extensive control and lacking unhealthy boundaries. autonomy. Yet, even I cannot begin to imagine being “…grateful, to a degree,Continue reading “A Life of Neglect, 3”
Healthy was missing. I did not know.
How can I know, healthy is missing, when I was not taught healthy? As I write those words, I realize they are incorrect, partially. I have had healthy people in my life since birth. What I did not have was either enough of them or they did not have the knowledge to see what andContinue reading “Healthy was missing. I did not know.”
December 6, 2020
Note: This post is out of order. I had hand written it originally. Dear Me, Recently, I have questioned how come I do not go to a shelter. Really questioned it. Any doubt I had was removed when two days ago my therapist noted, the past 3 to 4 sessions, I mentioned my decision notContinue reading “December 6, 2020”
December 14, 2020
The weather is miserable here. Snow coming also. It is days such as this that serve as stark reminders, to me, of how little we have and how hard it really is to survive, homeless and traumatized. As in death, the world around you goes on. The same can be said of homelessness. While IContinue reading “December 14, 2020”
Rusty & Wolf 2019 